Resonating Through Shared Humanity: The Iron Gates of Ambivalence

This is where the magic happens. Or at least the awkward self-reflection.

For those feeling walled off from the world, locked behind their strongest defences.

β€œProtecting yourself is not a weakness; it is required some daysβ€”without life, you do not live.”

Stoic and safe child, I feel the wallsβ€”they have slammed down like iron gates of thick steel, and you are locked behind them in the dark. You have given up on vulnerability for the moment and have stepped behind your greatest defence: ambivalence. You are not wrong for doing this, and it makes sense why you did. The world around you seems too hard to parse, so you have given yourself the space to be coldly calculating, knowing you are not seen at present.

I know you hate this spaceβ€”you hate this defenceβ€”and yet you are gorgeous and caring regardless. Anger is your response here; you are on a trigger, and also, there are threats and aggressionβ€”I see this too. You are not broken, you are not abnormal. Regardless of your condition, you are still human. Your rage is because of the distance; you are so sensitive to it. It feels so lonely and yet so much safer.

Courageous child, protecting yourself is not a weaknessβ€”it is required some days. Without life, you do not live. Should it be taken, you can help no one. Be at peaceβ€”not necessarily less defensiveβ€”but let me give you permission for this state. There is no shame here. Your love is still strong, and your soul still sensitive. Just not right now. Now is the time to shield.

I will let you be quiet now. I will let you untangle and reforge, and let you receive the love that softens and opens the doors. I will not force itβ€”that is not the way. Let it free in its own time and in its own way. This is how the strong gain reprieve, and you are strongβ€”at times stronger than the world that birthed you or the credit you afford yourself. Allow me to witness your strength, almighty hero, as you overcome.

Strength and honour, sweetest child.

πŸ—οΈ Three Paths to Make This Yours - Unlock Your Understanding:

How do I honour the moments when I feel too closed off to open up?

  • 🧠 The Thinker’s Path: I would analyse the pattern of my emotional withdrawal and track what preceded the iron gate’s fall.

    • 🧠 Journal each time you withdraw emotionally, noting any patterns in triggers, timing, or environment.

  • 🌿 The Wanderer’s Path: I would listen gently to my body’s signals and trust that my heart will open when it’s ready.

    • 🌿 Create a ritual of comfortβ€”a walk, a bath, a scentβ€”that helps you feel safe when distant.

  • πŸ”₯ The Challenger’s Path: I would question why I feel I must always be openβ€”and let myself choose self-protection without guilt.

    • πŸ”₯ Practice saying β€œnot right now” aloud when you feel pushed to open up before you’re ready.

The truth is simple and hard: You’re always one choice away from a new path.

Whispers of truth. Meant for you!

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